"horrible, terrible, no good, very bad day...
No details; just know there are TWO children that are seriously LUCKY to be alive.
On a daily basis I loose my cool; but yesterday it was WAY BEYOND just loosing my cool... I had to go in my room; scream into my own pillow WHILE crying I was SO UPSET.
Quick Question;
What do you do to calm yourself down?
Usually I just need to tell myself I am like 10 times older than my kids so grow up!, but on days like this one I was SCREAMING... no not just yelling at the kids; SCREAMING like I was going to loose my voice at them.
It makes me sad...
It makes me feel like I am a bad mother...
WHY do I let myself get so UPSET?
I mean I love these kids with everything I have; so why do the little things they do as 3 and 4 year olds drive me so freakin' crazy? WHAT the heck am I going to do with them as teenagers?
Just so I can remember this day; I'm just going to say Hailey had TONS of potty accidents... pee and poo; so when I read back on this I can remember what pissed me off so bad...
I think today I am over it and really trying to get past it; but MAN I still feel upset.
Pray for ME and PRAY for my kids... not looking forward to that cruise now if this is what I have to deal with.